Everything comes at a cost here.
Love, hate, truth, lies,
Everything.
It’s never easy to admit how dependent you are, how attached, how vulnerable in a bond.
You know why?
I’ll tell you.
Because: 1. It means you’re no longer in control. It means you just gave someone the power to shatter you.
2. It beats your ego to have a weakness. A liability.
3. It is so damn inconvenient to know that someone’s mere absence can eventually destroy you.
4. The fact that a person can bring so much warmness to your soul, means all this warmness can also go to hell if they choose to leave.
And why does any of this hurt sometimes, to the point of denial, maybe?
Because you’d rather believe you’re good on your own. Strong. Complete. That excessive emotions are not your thing. That attachment/dependency kills everything. That nothing and no one has the power to hurt you and that it should stay that way. That you’ve been hurt enough.
And you know what that also translates to?
Anything BUT human.
You can never admit, believe, trust, or embrace the fact that you’re so fucking fragile. A hell lot more fragile than you’d wish to be.
Running away from everything that’s human is a state of denial. It gets the best of you. It takes the best away from you, too.
This life is so tough. We’ve been broken over and over, some more than others. You are fragile, whether you accept it or not. Life will beat you down. There’s nothing you can do about it. Have a safe haven. Embrace it. Accept your fragility. Let your walls down.
The harder you fight it, the longer you waste. Your only escape, is to run into familiar arms every single time life takes its toll on you. It’s beautiful, and so divine.